Sunday, September 13, 2009

You felt it so strong, but nothing's turned out how you want.

"Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted"


"Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it"

"
Whenever the end is
Do you think you can see it?
Well, until you get there
Go on, go ahead and scream it
Just say it"

-One Republic

I'm tired of feeling like a failure and I don't know how to change it.

Had a really tough weekend once again. Katie just gets so stressed and once she's done she's done. The whole weekend I was getting her ready for her snookers run hoping to use the other runs to get her ready for it... But Katie did one jump and was done. I cried. I felt like a failure. I've tried everything, short sessions thats are all fun, but she just wont. I frustrates me to see that she can do masters and Nationals courses, but a straight line at a trial is too much. I guess I need to look at it this way, I get stressed too. But I just don't know how to fix it. So, Katie's going into temporary trial retirement. We will be working on Backyard Agility and stress work.

I'm tired of hearing "Bad Dog" and getting people looking at Katie funny. They don't blame me, but I still blame myself... Katie's NOT a bad dog, she's a STRESSED dog. When people say that to her, all I hear is "bad trainer". I trained her, so some of it has to be my fault. I just wish it was different, she has so much potential.



Wednesday, August 19, 2009

I'm the one who Understands you.

I've been thinking a lot lately.. I know I always start my blogs like this.. But really I don't know how to start them.. I just cant come up with ideas for my blog! haha... Welll....

I've been struggling with Katie since I've met her.. and no one really understands that like I do.. or have see us grow as a team. So here's the story from the beginning... Its of our struggles and how we continue to over come them..

3 years ago, I walked into the SPCA to look for a dog for my Grandma.. Yea I know a lot of you have already heard this story time and time again.. But please listen.
I vaguely remember that day, so please understand my lack of details. I remember the walk into the shelter, looking outside at the dogs, there was this one.. It had "the look" I can't really explain that look, Grandma looked at him, I insisted, but we kept going. We then walked into the shelter and a grey car pulled up.. I looked into the car, two dogs were in the car, The lady came out with one, I saw the dog and instantly got on the ground to go face to face with the dog... I remember petting her.. kinda being in a trance, I asked the name, The lady said Katie.

I remember the lady caring alot about Katie, I remember her paying extra money so that she could go to the perfect home... I remember looking at Katie's collar, it was pink with a red heart tag on it that said "Best Friend". I remember My grandma signing the papers that day..

A week later, we went to the vet to pick Katie up.. I remember her being very tired from the spaying operation. I remember it was myself, my auntie and my grandma. I remember getting in my Aunties White car and Me holding her while we drove to Grandmas. I remember getting to my Grandma and Just watching her.. I stayed at my grandma's three nights and just watched over her while she recovered... I remember my Brother saying she wasn't very tough, that she wouldn't play with him.. I remember her proving him wrong. ;) I remember once I left my grandma's that I still went over there everyday to see her. I remember the day we lost Katie's "best friend" Tag, Maybe it was a new beginning.

I remember going online and seeing the Pawsitive Steps agility camp and asking my mom about it. She agreed, I remember sending my form in. I remember being excited for summer so I could go to camp. I remember the night before, thinking about who else was thinking about the camp.
I remember being the only junior at camp. I remember feeling left out, I remember sitting by Katies crate and eating lunch while everyone else was in the gazebo. I remember getting really excited for every day. I remember the end of Camp and taking the photo.

I remember going clothes shopping with my cousin and begging her to go to Pet Cetera and seeing the Agility Kit and rushing to the phone to call my mom to ask her if I could get it. I remember buying it. I remember the day that Katie finally was weaving. I remember showing off to my family. I remember being SO proud.

I remember going to the club. I remember mistaking Leslie for Linda. I remember trying the equipment.. I remember when Katie would run off and get into fights.... I remember going home crying.

I remember Katie not being aloud to come over because of the cat. I remember trying SO many things. I remember rubbing a towel on the cat then the same one on Katie. I remember Katie and the cat interacting through the door. I remember treating Katie every time the cat was in the room. I remember the break through I had when they started to get along.

I remember preparing for Katie`s first trial. I remember going to practice and then her getting Kennel Cough. I remember my mom telling me that the Vet said we shouldn't go to the trial. I remember going to watch the trial without Katie. I remember hearing Katie`s name being called and crying.

I remember preparing for Katie`s real first trial. I remember telling Linda that we were going to beat her. Haha. I remember Gamblers, I remember her running out of the ring and then coming back.. I remember her getting the Gamble but some ladies told the judge that I stepped over the line. I remember getting first and being SO happy. I remember Katie getting her First Q in Jumpers.

I remember Katie`s Second Trial, I remember Katie just going Nuts and not listening. I remember crying and wondering why. I remember our last run, Almost Qing.. Wow. She really knows when to kick in.

I remember Making Jumps in my backyard with my mom. :)

I remember Katie getting AWESOME in my backyard. I remember when we trialed it all fell apart. I remember getting our Gamblers Q. I remember trying harder and harder. I remember trying Obedience and trick training to try to get focus. I remember going to winter camp.

I remember going to trials and wondering whats going wrong.. and I`ve come to a conclusion... Katie has stress issues.. She stresses from environmental changes. I know so many people would have given up on Katie, and I know I`ve though of it. But if I give up, Katie wouldn`t be the same dog, she needs me and if I give up I`m losing the opportunity for Katie to teach me.. Katie is what I need. I can learn so much from her. I already have. I love Katie SO much. She means everything to me. She continues to teach me new things.

Thanks Katie! Every tear I cried was a new lesson and I wouldn`t take it back. Ever.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Trying not to lose my Head.

Where do I begin? Everything has just been hitting me insainly...


Last week was crazy for me. Thank god Savannah could take my shift. I love you Savannah!


Monday:


Worked. Was mad because it was agility night.


Tuesday:


Took Envy and Katie to agility at the feild. Katie wouldn't listen, so I played with Envy most of the time working on watching other dogs play and not reacting and teeter bang game.


Wednesday:


Worked


Thursday:


Reesa and Heather were in town. We had a great time. I got to meet Jayde. Envy had a great time playing with both. Katie was different, it took her along time to get used to others in the backyard. So we worked through it. The dogs had a great time playing. We then Had Dinner and then ran Katie, Katie had a great time! Then we ran Rosco and Jayde! Jayde was crazy fast! Rosco was feeling sick.. poor dog. We then walked Katie home (Poor Reesa had to walk Rosco and Envy!) and played on the schools equipment. Then we ran the dogs to see who was fastest.. Envy's herding instinct messed it up when he ran after Rosco. Ha ha! We then were on the computer and then watched a movie.. Reesa fell asleep and Heather and I talked till Reesa got up.. then we talked some more and went to bed at around 3.


Friday:


Raced the dogs again. We hung out for a bit, then I had to get ready for my trial and then eventually Laura showed up and we went to the Hotel for the night.


Saturday:


Trial


Jumpers:


Tried something new, Katie runs off to look at a sand bag, I run off we are done. No second chance


Snooker:


Stupid Handler! Katie was SO focused. We could have Q'd! We finished the opening but Stupid handler forgot the rules and went into the closeing before finishing the opening....


Standard:


She was going so good! Had great speed on the Dogwalk and got her contacts.. then when she was on the table she looked behind her and there was a dog there, I released her from the table to keep going.. but she went to look at the dog. Heather ran Jayde and they did amazing! Great girl Jayders!






Gamblers:


She was done for the day.. Wouldnt listen


After that we ate dinner, I was pretty down.. I've tried so many things and they just aren't working. I dont know how to help Katie's ring stress!


We then had fun games, Katie sat out of the hot dog eating contest and the frisbee one because she eats like a lady and likes to watch the frisbee fall to the ground. Ha ha! So Katie partisipated in the "Best Trick" contest. We watched other tricks like walking throw legs, playing with soccer balls, and roll overs. Then it was our turn, so I did the jumping over my back trick. Katie won best trick. :)




Sunday:

Woke up in the tent.

Gamblers:

Not focused. She was going good, but they had to restart the time.. and it messed her up.

Standard:

Saw some people who were watching, turned around and barked at them.. I lost it.. I cried. We were encouraged to run the course... but she wouldn't listen.. I cried more.

Snooker:

Course wasn't as flowy, so when I took my eye off her so got distracted..

Jumpers:

Wanted to end the trial on a good note. So we did the last four obsticals. Great focus baby :)

I then ran Nestle the Lab in Advanced Jumpers! FUN dog!


Over all, tough weekend.. I think I'm going to have to back chain for a couple trials.

I came home to Envy being sick.. I was so worried.. I cried, I asked to take him to the vet but mom said to wait it out. He's doing good now. Poor baby.

Everyone thinks its so easy...
~Alyssa


Photos Copyright to David Greenburg. Great photos David!


Dreaming about the day when you wake up
And find that what you're looking for has been here the whole time


If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along. So why can't you see?
You belong with me
You belong with me



~Taylor Swift You belong with me

Monday, August 3, 2009

A little Over my head?

So, I was FORCED to write an entry by the amazing ShayLee of the "Going for 'Good Dog!" Blog, Check her out! :)


I really have nothing to write about.. Hrm.. Let me think, whats been going on lately? Lets step back to July 20th.

July 20th, 2009, Reesa (DogTrainingGirl101 on Youtube) came over! Awesome time. We went to go pick up Katie, but Katie was in her "crazy dog" stage. Where it takes her about an hour to cool down. After that, Katie was ready to do agility! :) I ran Rosco, and Reesa ran Katie. We then went to go see Nova Scotia Duck Tolling Retriever puppies! So cute! Reesa had a great time throwing apples for Chime! Reesa and I, then stayed up till 3 am.

July something or other 2009, We went out to the creek with Envy! :) I love this dog, SO much. Gosh, he listens like theres no tomorrow. He hung out with the other dogs while we swam. Made some great friends :) OH gosh, He's such a goober, When he first gets into the water he has this expression like "ewww" and then he's fine.
what Else, what else? When Reesa left she lent me her book "Control Unleashed" and I started reading it. Wow! great book, I've been making great progress with Katie. Katie also went to the reactive dogs class at Kim's Camp... when she didn't feel like reacting, go figure? So I've come to the conclusion that Katie doesn't like the slight changes in her environment. The little things set her off, a bark, a new person being added, etc. So I'm working on that plus her reactivity to certain dogs, Its only certain dogs, go figure x2? So I took her to the one she reacts the most too and work her slowly by. If she freaked out, we'd step back until she was calm. I can proudly say that we made it past the dog :). Good girl Katie. Trial this weekend!!

Much Love
~Alyssa, Katie & Envy

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Sometimes Goodbye is a Second Chance.

Well, I haven't posted on Blogger for sometime now...

Next month is Dally's 11th Birthday... I can't get her out of my mind! Every little thing I do reminds me of her... When I go to the cupboard and bang its door, there's no basset hound waiting for a treat... When People come to the door, theres no bark... and when I go to bed, I call one name, not two...

The last few months of Dally's life we became closer than ever. She inspired me. This year she was suppose to trial in Jumpers.. I remember looking at Katies course and thinking, would Dally have Q'd? Gosh Cancer is so horrible...

What else is going on in my life? Envy had puppy camp July 15th, 16th and 17th. He's a good boy. The instructor ask us to show our hand targets and we did them along time ago, so I didn't think he'd remember.. but he did :). He also did an awesome job shaping. He was so tired after the camp, good boy Enner Bean!

and katie? Katie needs alot of work.. But its all my fault. Why does she act out durring trials? Because I've trained her wrong, not enought renforcement to make Agility more fun then sniffing. Katie has a Top Dog trial coming up, She had a fun trial there so lets hope for the best.

I was just about to go get the lyrics for Shinedowns Second Chance and one of the Songwrighters names are Bassett.. funny how that works out, hey?

"To make them realise
this is my life
I hope they understand
I'm not angry, I'm just saying...
Sometimes goodbye
is a second Chance

Heres my chance
This is my Chance."

Friday, May 22, 2009

Everyday you seem to amaze me <3

So tomorrows the weekend! School will be out in a couple of weeks and I'm excited!

Katie's improved DRAMASTICALLY! No one really knows or understands how different she is. When I got Katie everyone was not impressed with her. She ran away constantly, she pulled on the leash and couldn't come over because she'd attack the cat.... Well, a year later, Katie is coming back 70% of the time, is better on the leash ( My hand isn't bleeding by the time I get home -_-), and is best friends with the cat.

I've changed my perspective on how to get her to come. I've retrained it and when she comes back to me it's a party and a half. When she runs away, I take her back and we do it some more then leave. And this has worked like magic!

Probably 4 months ago Katie received a gentle leader. Before it I had tried everything... Choke collar, pinch collars.. they did kind of work, But I didn't like it. So She has a gentle leader... the fact that it looks like a muzzle and when she lunges at people to go see them makes me laugh. Now, we still aren't 100%. She knows how to take it off, so I need a new one, and at this one house that this dog attacked her before, she goes crazy... Katie likes revenge...

AND THE CAT! WOW! Seriously, if you seen her now with the cat you wouldn't think anything of it. When I got Katie I was very aware that the reason why she was put into the SPCA was because she hated cats and it wasn't until Katie started to come over that I realized this. She would lunge at the cat every time she seen her. Tecarra started hanging out upstairs after that. So what did I do? I introduced them slowly. One day it was rubbing a towel on Katie that smelled like Tecarra, the next interaction through a door or crate, then it was treating her every time the cat was in the room, even if she didn't know. Then it all started to just piece together. In the beginning I wouldn't have dared to leave Katie alone with the cat.. But now I have no reason to doubt.

Though all the tears from these events and Katie... She's made me a better trainer because of them and I am thankful for every minuet of them now <3

~Alyssa & Katie.

Friday, May 15, 2009

Growing up to FAST!!

It seems like so long ago I was in the midst of BEGING my parents for a puppy. My obsession with Shelties... Wow.. My friends still think I ended up with a sheltie! I love the breed but in the end I was turned to a certain dog.. A dog that was ment to be mine.

Envy came into my life to teach me new things and about myself. He's a crazy puppy, but in the end I couldn't be more thankful for him. The dogs picking up words like crazy. My mom tells him "Go find your mom!" and my little puppy comes straight to me. Envy's my miricle.. I wouldn't be the same without him. He's helped me with the craziness with Dally in which made our bond stronger. He was always there when I was crying and always made me feel better. Im so excited for our future... he's showing many promises. Even if we never compete, Im glad for this dog. :)

AND WOW! He's grown up SO fast! He's ALL legs now. Crazy dog ;)

~Alyssa and Envy

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